Birthdays

 I celebrated my birthday last week. It seemed a little more significant this year; not just because I'm getting closer to 40 (😬), but because I'm alive and I GET to celebrate another year of being alive. I was heading to lunch on Tuesday and I got a little emotional thinking about this past year. I had an aggressive cancer that would’ve taken my life 20 years ago. Due to medical advances, I was able to receive, and still receive, a medication that's very effective against my type of cancer. I'm so very grateful that I live here and now and that I'm able to continue to live and raise my children and grow old with Ryan. 

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